While I know almost everyone who goes onto the internet to blog is thinking about what they will gain from it, I am not because there really isn't anything for me to gain. Of course there's your respect, but really all I want is to have something in my life that is real because it can be seen by other people. Most of what I do, like drawing and writing little short stories will never be seen by anyone but me. Even if I die tomorrow, no one will publish anything I have written, or send any of my drawings to an art museum just because it would be more valuable once I'm dead. I actually doubt anything I do will ever be famous, and really I don't want it to be. Fame, as it seems to me, is exhausting. people swarm around you like flies on a carcass, looking for you to sign your name and give them a hug or pose with them in a picture. It is all very material and my opinion is that if you really want to meet a person you have to at least have a conversation, not just see and acknowledge them.
What I want for my life is to build things that give other people joy. To me, the meaning of life is to be happy and inspire happiness in others, but I have no idea how any of my talents can do that. I love drawing, but I am extremely amateur and so dub most of my art as abstract with lots of color. Writing gives me stress, and while I can absolutely start a story, and even work it to the middle, the finish is never in sight. I have always loved to run, but without the proper motivation it just won't happen for me. And anyway I don't see how becoming an athlete could help bring me closer to giving others happiness. That would be just for me and my competitors. There is one other talent I have, but it is not the best thing for me because I am so afraid of being judged by others and of failure.
Please feel free to send suggestions, and enjoy your life.
ReplyDeleteI like your blog and I will cont to read. You were my 100th follower but I couldnt send you a direct message on Twitter. So I found you a famous quote--
ReplyDeleteWhen we're motivated by goals with deep meaning,by dreams that need completion, by pure love that needs expressing then we truly live life.
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ReplyDeleteWanted to thank you for commenting on my blog earlier this summer. Here, no need to worry about failure. You can do what brings you joy - running, art, writing, and truly love what you do, no matter how it compares to others. For instance, my daughters drawings are incredible, where mine - well, stick figures and smiley faces are what they are. But I still draw them on her lunch notes. Your other option is to worry and hold back due to fear of failure, and what is the fun, the joy in that? Fear seldom leads to smiles, and smiling is what draws people in. People who might inspire or teach us or just become friends, enriching our lives. If something is easy, enjoy it. If it's not - well, you never know till you try. Lessons I wish I'd has earlier in life. Better later than never!
ReplyDeleteThank you very much for you advice, and I promise I will put it to use. You're right, and in some ways I think that happiness is the meaning of life, but people forget that life is really about the journey and not the destination.
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